This blog post isn't really about any healthy choice in particular, but it's not any less important. This morning, in church the lesson was about canceling the pity party. It made me realize something very important.
Just because I'm not going to be dancing at Miss Oklahoma, does not mean I don't have something to offer.
It does mean, I have something different to offer this year. Of course it was a dream of mine to make my Miss Oklahoma debut dancing my heart out to an incredible pointe routine and maybe even win rookie talent, however, that was not my mission. God needed to find some way to show me, and He knew I wouldn't make the decision to sing on my own.
For a few weeks, I became so frustrated with singing. I felt like I was "bad" and I knew this wasnt my "talent" , but once again God swooped in and showed me that this is all part of the journey. I was terrified of what others would think of my voice, because I know most people who know me associate me with my dancing feet... Not my singing voice.
Then I realized one thing... Singing or dancing my mission is to serve. To serve my state as a role model. To serve the other girls by being a friend, and to serve my Lord and Savior by being the brightest light I can be during the Miss Oklahoma pageant.. And always. I was so focused on something so trivial that I didn't realize that regardless, I would still get to fulfill the best mission of all!
So long story short, this "pity party" is cancelled, it's time to start loving the experience for all that it is and all that it is going to teach me. Sometimes it's frustrating, and what bothers me most is that as a perfectionist I want to give my all! Luckily, I am blessed to have family and friends who are ready to push me in the right direction so that I WILL walk off the stage knowing I gave 150% and performed to my best ability.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and been a part of this journey!
xoxo,
Heather
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